Thank you...

Last night, I laid awake in bed just just thanking Him for anything my eyes fell on - my home, my roof, my bed, even my cute Africa decorations...why? I finally felt good. I have been sick with the cold from down under (not Australia) since Tuesday. I've been lying on the couch with no energy, bad headaches, soar throat etc. only soup, grilled cheese and chocolate was sounding good to eat. And on one particular night I got to revisit all I had eaten that day...

Anyway, it feels so good to feel good again and I'm just thankful. I don't want to take my health for granted. Oh if i could bottle up how I'm feeling right now and save it for sick days to come or even gray-haired days to come when things don't work like they should any more. It's inspired me to get health insurance also.

More often than not, I grabbed my guitar this week and I can't explain it but I felt better while I was singing and playing the guitar. The song I'm learning right now is "My romance". Revelation 5:11 tells us that there are 100 million angels worshiping the Lord around His throne...100 million all saying the same thing "worthy is the lamb that was slain"...makes my headache seem quite insignificant. One more thank you - to my church in Swaziland, Salvation and Praise Ministries (pictured above)- they are the ones who taught me to worship and sing to the Lord when I don't feel good.

I don't want chocolate chip...

One of my friends' 4 year old grandson called her the other day and said he was coming to visit her. She told him she would have a cookie for him when he got there. When her grandson showed up she handed him a chocolate chip cookie. He refused it, he wanted a pink-heart shaped one. The little boy was hurt because he was sure his grandma had promised him a pink heart-shaped cookie. "I did promise you a cookie but I didn't say a pink heart-shaped cookie", she told him. When she asked him why he wanted a pink-heart shaped cookie he said "because that one means love". She had to explain to him that the chocolate chip cookie meant she loved him also.

I'm doing the same thing with my Abba. He promised to love me, protect me, speak to me, draw me etc. and now all of the sudden his methods are different and I'm rejecting them. To me, feeling His presence makes me feel loved. Lately, He has felt so far away but a song will come on the radio and express what I cannot say and I burst into tears. That's still telling me He's there, He's listening...but I don't want that way. I read my Bible and nothing pops out like it used to and I'm frustrated that He's not speaking to me. Instead, friends in Christ are speaking truth into my life that is penetrating my heart. I'm such a routine and method person and the Lord so wants it to be about the relationship but I'm struggling with these chocolate chip cookies.