Dusting off the old blog

I can't believe I haven't written in two months. The reason? A little something I like to call "the full-time job". I have been working at my church since January but October 1st I started working full time and I have found I have little to no time (or energy) for anything else. I am thankful for the new job and health insurance is also a plus! (Pictured: Some of the Church staff. 2 of my 3 bosses are in this picture - the Women's Director, Terri, Front middle in the khaki pants. The other is our Local Outreach Pastor, Matt, in the back row, third from the right)

I'll start back off slow on the blog with just a funny thing that happened yesterday. Me and the Lord have been wrestling it out this last week (of course He is winning). He's brought up some areas in my life that stem from deep hurt and I'm not giving him access to it. I'm protecting the hurt with anger and religion (reading my bible, praying etc. - all outward and no relating to the Lord). I let Him know if He would show me the root of the hurt I would surrender but as for now He hasn't showed me so I'm neglecting to give him any time. Try not to be overwhelmed with my spiritual maturity.

So it's been over a week and of course I'm miserable and this issue is affecting every area of my life. Yesterday, I was getting dressed and in putting my jeans on I somehow lost my footing (I know, so not like me). I went to lean on my wall and instead put my full weight on my closet (which has curtains instead of doors). I hit my mirror against my wall, hit my arm on the wall, and fell into my closet. This only made me more mad but later I realized I had landed on the side of my closet that is in my prayer closet. I had to laugh, here I had been resisting the Lord all week and Friday I fell in the prayer closet.